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Dear debbie,
I know the counselor said we shouldnt contact eachother during our cooling off period, but but I couldnt waist anymore time.
The day you left I swore i would never talk to you again but that was just the wounded little boy in me talking. Still, I never wanted to be the first one to make contact. in my fantasies it was always you who would come crawling back to me. I guess my pride needed that. But now I see that my prides cost me a lot of things. Im tired of pretending I dont miss you. I dont care about looking bad anymore. I dont care who makes the first move as one of us does. Maybe its time we let our hearts speak as loudly as our hurt.

This is what my heart says. "theres no one like you connie. I look for you in the eyes and breasts of every woman I see, but theyer not you, not even close".

Two weeks ago I met this girl at Flamingos and brought her home with me. I dont say this to hurt you, but just to illustrate the depths of my desperation. She was young, maybe 19, with one of those perfect bodies that only youth and maybe a childhood spent ice skating can give you. I mean just a perfect body. Tits like you wouldnt believe and an ass that just wouldnt quit. Every mans dream right?

As I sat on the couch being blown by this stunner, I thought, look at the stuff we have made important in our lives. Its all so superficial. What does a perfect body mean? Does it make her better in bed? Well in this case, yes, but you see what Im getting at. Does it make her a better person? Does she have a better heart than my moderatlely attaractive debbie?
I doubt it. And I never really thought of that before. I dont know, maybe im just growing up a little.

Later, after Id tossed her about a half a pint of throat yogurt, I found myself thinking,"why do I feel so drained and empty? It wasnt just her flawless technique or her slutty, shameless hunger, but something else. Some nagging feeling of loss. Why did it feel so incomplete? And then it hits me. It didnt feel the same because you wernt there to watch. Do you know what I mean? Nothing feels the same withouit you. Damn debbie, Im just crazy without you and everything I do just reminds me of you.

Do you remember Carol, that single mom we met at the Holiday Inn lounge last year? Well she dropped by last week with a pan of lasagna. She said she figured I wasnt eating right without a woman around. I didnt know what she meant till later, but thats not the real story. Anyway, we had a few glasses of wine and the next thing you know we are banging away in our old bedroom. And this tarts a total monstor in the sack. Shes giving me everything, you know, like a real woman does when shes not hung up about her weight or her career and whether the kids can hear us. And all of a sudden she spots that tilting mirror on your Grandmothers old vanity. So she puts it on the floor and we stradle it, right, so we can watch ourselves. And its totally hot but it makes we sad to because I cant help thinking, "Why didnt debbie ever put the mirror on the floor?" weve had this mirror for what, 14 years and we never used it as a sex toy. Saturday, your sister drops by with my copy of the restraining order. I mean, Vickis just a kid and all, but shes got a pretty good head on her shoulders and shes been a real freind to me during this painfull time. Shes given me lots of good advice about you and women in general. Shes pulling for us to get back together, debbie, she really is.

So we are doing Jello-shots in a hot bubble bath and talking about happier times. Heres this teenage girl with the same DNA as you and all I can think about is how much she looked like you when you were 18. And that just about makes me cry. And then it turns out Vicky is really into the whole anal thing and thats gets me to thinking about how many times I pressured you about trying it and how that probably fueled some of the bitterness between us. But do you see how even then, when Im thrusting inside your baby sisters cinnamon ring, all I can do is think of you? Its true debbie. In your heart you must know it. Dont you think we could start over? Just wipe out all the grievances away and start fresh? I think we can. If you feel the same way, please, please, please let me know.

Otherwise, can you let me know where the remote is?
Love, Dan
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